Kenneth: To go it alone or to go with a partner? When you choose a partner, you have to have compromises and sacrifices, but it’s a price you pay. Do I want to follow my every whim and desire as I make my way through time and space? Absolutely. But at the end of the day, do I need someone when I’m doubting myself and I’m insecure and my heart’s failing me? Do I need someone who, when the heat gets hot, has my back?
He always used to sing this song to me. I thought I’d heard all the songs that reminded me of him, had gotten past the memories associated with them and on to a place where I could appreciate the songs again. And then, today, almost two years later, I heard this one. And I realized how special it was to have been loved by someone in this way, even just for a little bit. I do not want him back, ever - if he came up to me right now, I’d probably ignore him. But even though we no longer feel this way about each other, it comforts me to know that once, I was someone’s angel, and I will be again, someday.
Do you ever wonder what your reason for being is? Not the cliched “meaning of life” - the reason you were born into this world. Is it something bigger than you could ever imagine? Are you meant to be the next Ghandi? Or Shakespeare? Does your purpose affect a smaller circle, like a hardworking teacher who actually cares that her students succeed? Some people are meant to do wonderful things on a grand scale that change the lives of millions. How do you know if that’s you? What if your purpose in life is to get married and have a beautiful daughter who grows up to be abducted on spring break in Mexico which causes you to appear on television to spread the word to other parents? What about the woman who started Mothers Against Drunk Driving? Did she grow up thinking her purpose in life would be to be a fantastic mother, only to have that dream taken away so violently? Or did she just realize her purpose in a different way? Creating a national campaign to honor her child’s thoughtlessly lost life and trying to ensure that it never happens again to anyone else’s children. Do you think she views it that way?
How are you supposed to know what your purpose is? Do you know it when it happens? Or is it the brightest scene on the highlight reel at the end of your life?